没那么坚强

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或
悲惨 一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

女孩的痛!

男孩们，你们知道什么叫“痛”吗？
请你们别用刀片往女孩们的伤口割。。。
也许，你们不晓得那有多痛。。
也也许，你们不晓得那有多伤。。
但，请你们饶恕她们吧……

难道，你们要看到她们伤痕累累才甘心吗？
难道，你们要看到她们痛不欲生才心服口服吗？
难道，你们要看到她们片体鳞伤才善罢甘休吗？
难道，那就是你们所谓的“爱”她们吗？！
请你们别那么自私，好吗？
珍惜眼前人，别再伤害她们了~~


明白 李圣杰

这是我第几次唱情歌

也是我第几次独自难受
我想你从来就没想过
我却想了好多 好多

那是我 第一次深爱过
也是最后一次我对人说
也许你还是不相信我
还是你对我没把握 你没有说

有时我会想离开 想证明我的爱
或许我还不明白 你给的是不是爱
我在门外 我在等你叫我回来
除非你真的不再对我关怀

那是我 第一次深爱过
也是最后一次我对人说
也许你还是不相信我
还是你真的不爱我 你告诉我

有时我会想离开 想证明我的爱
或许我还不明白 你给的是不是爱
我在门外 我在等你叫我回来
除非你真的不再对我关怀

我想念你的爱 没有人看出来
或许我早该明白 你给的并不是爱
别再责怪 我不想你受到伤害
因为你是我最深爱的女孩

有时我会想离开 想证明我的爱
或许我还不明白 你给的是不是爱
我在门外 我在等你叫我回来
除非你真的不再对我关怀
你在不在 希望你是真的愉快
因为你是我最深爱的女孩

P/S : 這首歌唱出我的心聲!This lyrics describe every single pain I feel right now. The feeling is getting deeper and deeper. This song lyrics describe my feeling to the guy that i love. We used to be like couple, but we're not couple at all. I miss him a lot. How can he hurt me so cruel? But i don't mind. It time to let go? What should i do? I'm so frustrated!

我不想忘記你

Well, I don't know how to express my feeling right now.

Whenever I'm alone, i think a lot.

Every time I listen to this song, it brings back all the memories.
It makes me cry as the lyrics describe every single pain I feel right now.

The feeling is getting deeper and deeper

Listen to this song you guys will know how i felt.

這首歌寫出了我的心情，每一句都很真實

To*L「容忍的人其實並不笨，只是寧可對自己殘忍」放手也許才是不會兩­敗俱傷的方法，離開才是對你我都好的選擇，退出才可以繼續默默看­著你，讓你幸福才是對我最大的欣慰。

It's HURT

I saw someone today after work while waiting for my sis. 
I saw someone that i shouldn't see.
  I don't know why, when i saw both of them were sitting there my heart feel like broken into pieces. 
Why? Why love,if losing hurts so much? 
The pain now is part of the happiness then. 
You will never know true happiness, until you have truly loved, and you will never understand, what pain really is, until you have lost it.
He touched my heart with
a thousand pleasures and broke it into million pieces.
And I have to work so hard at talking positively to myself. 
If I don't, it's just real hard to get through the day, and I'll get really down, and just want to cry.
My whole body language changes. 
I get more slumped over. 
Because of you, I'm running out of reasons to cry. 

 

This song sang out my feeling.. :')

Missing you day and night :')

I know it hurt you it hurt me too,

but now that you're gone

All I know is I Miss You!

Whenever I miss you, 

I hug my pillow tight

& imagine it's you :'(

Nobody understands how much I miss you,

I miss how we used to talk,

& miss all the things we used to do

I try not to admit it to myself

that I still feel this way.

Nobody knows that I still wake up

thinking of you each day.

I still think of you & I really do miss you

I would give up everything I have

to be everything we're not.

*L

All Alone

How can you hurt me so
you act like it was nothing
when you get up and go
but it was really something
to have left me all alone
I sit here and wonder
how you can be so blind
my mind just ponders
Im just too kind
while you have left me all alone
you make up these excuses
and pretend it is okay
but I can’t take the abuse
that you show my way
you have left me all alone
someday you will see
all the pain Im feeling
but this really hurts me
this is why Im fleeing
because you have left me all alone
Now I will leave you in the dust
when you see me walking off
you won’t be thinking about any lust
all you can imagine sitting in your loff
while I leave you all alone

Never hurt again

I think of every lie you’ve said,
as it wonders in and out my head.
You lied, you cheated, every memory I’ve deleted.
I thought what we had was really true.
Since that mistake, we’re nearly through.
I wonder about it everyday,
but there are no words I can say.
To explain the pain I feel inside,
from neglect and every lie. I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul.
I gave you every emotion I can’t control.
And with your mistake, it’s just another heartbreak.
You hurt me once, you hurt me twice.
Im so caught up in all your lies.
Never again, never again.
Because of you, things had to end.
Hurt, used, neglected, betrayed.
I need a new hope to be made.
I have had feelings I’ve never felt.
But now, because of you, I have dealt.
The damage you have done, I hope was fun.
The hurt that you caused me, resulted in plenty misery.
The only truth you ever told, was that I was something to let go.

Keep Believing *L

I am just like a fool when I need You
This heart of mine is always open
I am so easy to deceive
I am just a fool to keep believing
But I’ll keep on trying
Even though it will hurt
But can’t give up from You
This feeling inside
Doesn’t let me Give Up
All time I spend thinking of You
I should be healing myself instead of hurting
And it hurts to keep believing in You anymore
As long as this feeling is inside of me
I’ll keep believing….
Just a fool to believe

Blameless L*

I don’t blame you for my pain,
its not your fault people play there sick twisted games.
Yea Im hurt and often cry,
as there’s a question to be answered (WHY).
What gives people the rite to put me through humiliation and shame?
I guess we’ll never know as me and him are not the same.
As a mother it must been hard for you,
not knowing the torture your baby girl went through.
You did the best you could,
you shone through with the love.
The monster he walked free,
not a shed of guilt, just the next victim whippee.
Hurt and anger is all I know,
Im a lovely person in time it will show.
Until then bare with me,
the time is rite Im set free.
so believe me when I say, i don’t blame you for any of this,
its just some people take the piss

Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life.

                         Our greatest happiness does not depend on the condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result of a good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just pursuits.

 All of us have had the experience of a sudden joy that came when nothing in the world had forewarned us of its coming - a joy so thrilling that if it was born of misery we remembered even the misery with tenderness. 

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of.  You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

Happiness is not being pained in body or troubled in mind.You need to learn to be happy by nature, because you'll seldom have the chance to be happy by circumstance. On the whole, the happiest people seem to be those who have no particular cause for being happy except that they are so.To be happy, we must not be too concerned with others.In order to have great happiness you have to have great pain and unhappiness - otherwise how would you know when you're happy?Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.
 

P/S : Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling.

Working Pictures

 

 Those pictures snap it on 01/10/2010 first day working at Lady Map..

 Snap it while working time 03/10/2010

Before going to work

 Snap it while working time 02/10/2010

My big bun hairdo =) Love it..

Bye BOREDOM!

22hours more gonna say Bye BOREDOM! HAHA. Good news here! Finally i found a job. Tomorrow 10am should arrive the place i work! It's my first day working and also first time working at here (Kuching).. Wish me good luck! =) I should control my bad temper.. & try to be friendly with them.. I hope everything will be fine.. I really scare I'll make trouble.. My parent worry about me, they everyday called me asked me whether got job or not.. because I've bad temper.. They always asked me to bear with it and control my bad temper.. I want do the best! I believe that I can do it! Cause I don't want my family to worry about me & always decided for me what should do & what shouldn't.. I'm not KID anymore! I'm a independant & strong Win Hui! I'm not a little kitten Win Hui! Win Hui, tell yourself you can do it!! I want earn a lot of money..  

Between, I wont give up my dream! 

While I'm working I'll still waiting for the airline interview & go for it! My dream is to be a stewardess because I want to travel around the world see how beautiful is the world and meet different people. Some more, I love serve people and friendly to them,meet more friends.. Learn different languages to socialize other people..Plus, I want to help my family I don't want my parent work so hard.. I want give them a lot of money and bring my family for holiday.. Lastly, I want took a lot of pictures of my journey in my life.. 

 

女人，不要用身体去留男人!

一个男人，他可以不接受一个女人的爱，可是他不会拒绝这个女人的身体。也就是说，对于男人而言，情和性，是可以分离的，没有必然的纠葛。
女人们往往是天真的，她们想当然的以为只要一个男人还肯和她上床，还饶有兴致地和她缠绵，还会在做爱的时候表现得体贴和亢奋，那么，这个男人就是还对她有留恋，有感情，还有留住这个男人的希望。其实，事实并不是那个样子。
可能，大多数的男人都不会排斥女人主动的投怀送抱，倘若这个女人出于自愿肯和他们上床，那就更好不过了，他们会毫不吝惜地施展自己的床上功夫，还可能会 在那样的时候有片刻的温存和承诺，会有迷离的眼神，和温柔的拥抱，表现得像个勇士，无往而不利，可是，这只是一个男人的性欲，与他内心深处的感情波澜没有 任何的关系。
男人的感情和性欲，是分得很清楚的，他们对于自己爱的女人，重情重义，可是对于自己不爱的女人却只会玩弄和游戏，他们是 绝对不会因为和某个女人发生了关系就会爱上这个女人，也不会因为继续和某个女人上床而对这个女人重新产生爱情。对于男人而言，思维更加直接，爱或者不爱， 这是一个简单的问题，没有模糊，也没有犹豫。可是对于性爱，他们永远都不会放弃追求，爱一个女人，可以跟她上床，不爱一个女人的时候，也可以跟她上床。
女人们总会心存幻想的。妄图通过和自己喜欢的男人发生关系，而让这个男人成为自己的或者把这个即将离去的男人挽留住，这其实根本就是徒劳。如果你们还没 有爱过，那么，请不要试图用自己的身体做实验，让这个男人爱上你；如果你们爱过了又不爱了，更不要试图通过再一次的温存就让这个男人回心转意，这都是妄 想。
如果爱上了一个男人，不妨明确地告诉他，得到他一个明确的态度，不要用一种含糊不清的方式来界定你们的关系，也不要想用牺牲自己 的身体来唤起这个男人的爱昵和爱情，这一招，对男人而言求之不得，对女人而言，却是徒劳无益。如果已经失去了一个男人的爱，不要去卑微的用身体迎合和唤回 他的爱，就算你们依然保持着关系，你们的爱情也永远回不到从前，最终受到更多伤害的那个，永远是女人。
所以，女人，真的应该把自己的身体，牢牢地看好，让她远离男人的视线，这个身体，她应该在更自由和更自在的方式下，尽情舒展

 

Suddenly found this on facebook.. Really meaningful.. So Girls! MARK this! :D

Today he called me again.. :D

Should i happy? Or not? 

But while we talking on phone yesterday i felt happy=)

Although I treat you fierce, but I'm really happy that you called me..

Snoopy remind me of you <3

Today is the fourth day at Kuching.. When i arrive here, I'm not in good mood..
Don't know why..I'm so quiet all the day.. Damn bored.. I miss my family, my lovely friends and ...... Hope they will understand my feeling.. I really need their care and warmth..
I felt lonely.. I need a hug and someone to talk to.. I wanna cry out loud, but i can't.. I should be strong! =')

何洁-希望

美好时光总是太短暂

转眼我就要离开

请你别哭泣

就算我们要分离

别让眼泪沾湿回忆

一切都是因为你的肯定

天空才如此美丽

我不会忘记

每个悬念和呼吸

因为祝福

爱会继续

张开将单飞的翅膀

背负了离情依依

和每个人梦想的行李

现在我只想告诉你

我会一直爱着你

实现你的希望

疲倦的时候想着你

就擦亮我的梦想

我会永远爱着你

不会让你失望

你的爱是温暖我的力量

将翱翔天空的翅膀

在风中寻寻觅觅

不管飞到多远的距离

我的心永远在这里

我会一直爱着你

实现你的希望

寂寞的时候想着你

就擦亮我的梦想

我会永远爱着你

不会让你失望

请你也要为我爱自己

你的爱是温暖我的力量

温岚- 刺猬

 最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单 是寂寞或
悲 惨 一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声 黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚 强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇 敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上 一片无
声黑暗 心痛的大声呼喊
我 想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小 心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还
傻 刺猬的坚强全都是假象

我想我没那么坚强 每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好 渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤
承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞 强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧

这才是爱情..

所谓爱情、就是每天打电话、发短信、放假黏在一起吗？呵、幼稚！越甜蜜的爱情、结束得越快、现实点、不可能永远都那么甜蜜的。
试问、如果没有了电话、电脑、爱情还能支撑多久？
如果彼此心里一直有对方存在、更本就不需要仍和东西来维持、、
什么天长地久、海誓山盟——屁！分手后一样忘得一干而尽、然后继续对下一个人说、这样的狂言少说、等你做到了再说！
如果爱情是把对方管得太严的话、那还是分手吧、彼此之间连最起码的信任都没有、还谈什么爱情、可笑!
试问：如果对方想背叛你、就算管得住人、那心呢？相反、如果对方真的爱你、用得着你管吗？

如果爱情总是分分合合的话、那也快点分吧、经历了那么多次分分合合还没能习惯对方的生活、在一起也不会幸福！
爱情、是两个人用最真的心对待彼此、没有欺骗、彼此信任、就算不在一起、就算没办法联系、心里还依然深爱着对方!
爱你的那个人、会在你最需要帮助的时候给你心灵上最大的帮助、而不是单纯的物质！
爱情是开不起玩笑的、如果你开了玩笑、就意味着你的不到幸福！
常说爱情需要资本——钱！屁、也就是说没有了钱就没有爱情、呵、那还叫爱情吗？
爱情的资本是心、真心!如果你不能把这个给对方、算了、那就免谈！因为你不配！!
记住:爱情是自由、快乐的、不要让爱情变成负担、不要让爱情的意义变质！

25.07.2010

My heart felt warm, and melted when i saw HIM.. 

We've been broke up for 1 year 13 days dy..

Today we going to beach( our old place ), we talked a lot.. When I look in your eyes,I see the love we have for each other..But you've your own life now.. You seem very happy with your life.. I've nothing can do now, I know that I've no more chance to hug you tight when i need you.. 

Don't know why i still can't forget you..

It's hard to forget and let it go..

All our 2 years 7 months memories always in my mind..

You broke me, you broke my heart,
you broke everything!
You turned my world upside down and inside out,
BUT I know it was worth it for
that one moment of love we had,
it's a shame it went bad..

You take time out to listen to me.
You talk to me, smile at me,
laugh with me, and have fun with me.
Well, I talk, smile and laugh too,
but inside I'm hurting.
Deep down it hurts to be with you because 
 I love you and you are only a friend.

I don't wish to lost YOU~

But i've lost you..

What should i do? Forget you? or ?

Actually i don't have boyfriend, i just want let you know that i am happy and I've letting you go..

It's hurt when i told you that I've boyfriend..

Sometimes letting go is so hard, but it's easier than holding onto something that isn't THERE..

And nobody will see the tears behind those smiles..

broken

I can't sleep.. so frustrated!

Why i can not have a true love?

Why you still love her?

Why you cheat me?

You cheat me that you not love her anymore..

If you still love her please go and get her..

I don't like being cheated..

Why you love her still want treat me good?

You pity me is it?

Althought i ever been hurt deeply,

what i want is true love!

but you can't give me happiness..

you do like this make me feel more HURT!

i'm not happy when we're together..

i don't know why..

maybe i'm not your princess,

the true princess is her..

so HURT !

♥

Finally bought my '' Forever Mariah Carey perfume''. Excited!!!!  yuhooooooo ~
                                         

心動

   ♥ In love with this song..

She sang out my feeling

Love hurts..

I cried, because something happened to me.. My hearts feel like cracking while I'm crying over you. There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not,  I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I don't want to see you because every time I do, the fact that you don't see me the way that I see you hurts me even more.. I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most.

  

 You hurt me more than I deserve,
how can you be so cruel?
I love you more than you deserve,
why am I such a fool?

 

爱太痛 just for YOU 1812

                      爱太痛

吃不能吃 睡不能睡
Chi bu neng chi shui bu neng shui
没有了你 全都不对
Mei you le ni quan dou bu dui
我都学不会 把爱敷衍
Wo dou xue bu hui ba ai fu yan
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
Yong xiao rong lai ba yan lei chui mian
笑不能笑 哭不敢哭
Xiao bu neng xiao khu bu gan khu
人不像人 鬼不像鬼
Ren bu xiang ren gui bu xiang gui

朋友都说这 不过失恋
Peng you dou shuo zhe bu guo shi lian
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
Dan wo que lian hu xi dou dan qie
能不能不爱了 因为爱太痛了
Neng bu neng bu ai le yin wei ai tai tong le
我痛得快死了 却无法把你忘了
Wo tong de kuai shi le qu wu fa ba ni wang le
能不能不爱了 爱情它太痛了
Neng bu neng bu ai le ai qing ta tai tong le
我痛得快死了 却无法把爱割舍
Wo tong de kuai shi le que bu fa ba ai ge shi
我不能睡
Wo bu neng shui
我不能够 不能够不爱了
Wo bu neng gou bu neng bu ai le 

I love this song very much.. because he sang out my FEELING~ 

Love really hurts..

Down

Suddenly feel so down.. Why? What wrong i did? 

I just don't want you get cheated.. 

For your own good.. Wish you HAPPY =)

♥27/5/2010 breakfast

   This is my breakfast while playing with my laptop =)

Lazy want cook, so just ate this >< 

Strawberry paste with bread and HL milk with cornflakes.

Wish that kakak(maid) were here.. TT

She can cook a lot of nice dishes for me..

Always ate outside food..

Im not healthy ><

I'm just wake up..

so i've to take my shower luuu..

BYEEEEE~ Miss me !

吳克群 - 愛太痛

Heartbroken..

 是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的。既然我选择离开Miri 就不要再留恋我和你的回忆了。坦要忘记一切不好的回忆真难. 我跟他拥有那麽多回忆，他既然说忘就忘。我现在真的不知道该怎麽办。

Heartbroken..

Good morning

Good morning everyone.. Wish today have a nice day! Just having my breakfast (roti canai kosong) Thanks Jack, for buying the breakfast >< Going out later with my Darling YY. 

♥ Have a nice day!

♥ My Beloved thingies, Wait for me~

♥  Burberry Bag ( Rm 2500)

♥  iPhone 16GB

♥  Sony Cyber- shot camera( DSC-TX5)

♥  Dresses 

♥ Pants 

♥ Shoes

♥  Laptop accessories

♥ Skin care products 

♥ Cosmetics

Money money moneyyy!! Come come~ I need MONEY ! =( I want all those thing.. 

♥ Wait for me.. i'll buy all my beloved thingies back home, if i've money.. =(

Miss my dear Tracy =(

♥ Dear Tracy, i miss you a lot >< Wish you can come back =') i've a lot of secret wanna share with you.. Tracy, don't be upset no matter what happen kay? If  anything happen must tell me ya.. I'll always by your side.. Don't put inside your heart.. I'm always your Darling =) Miss you so muchhh! While you're not here, I'm alone all the time.. Now everything was changed.. All of us not like last time always gather at living room.. All of them busy their own thing.. =( 

♥Love you,Tracy! =(

Tired

Just come back from work.. Damn tired.. Tomorrow morning have to wake up on 8 morning prepare to go work at 10am.. Wohoooo~ Im so happy because my manager Eve resigned !!! All of us don't like her because of her attitude.. When she not around, i feel boring because she will let me do a lot of things while she were there..

I miss him very much! What should i do to forget him?? I hate that feeling.. I cant stop missing him every seconds, every minutes, every hours, and EVERYDAY ! ='( 

Byeeee~ going to sleep soon.. Will update my stories again when I'm free.. Miss me ya >< 

♥ All my FRIENDS ! Including YOU.