It's HURT

I saw someone today after work while waiting for my sis. 
I saw someone that i shouldn't see.
  I don't know why, when i saw both of them were sitting there my heart feel like broken into pieces. 
Why? Why love,if losing hurts so much? 
The pain now is part of the happiness then. 
You will never know true happiness, until you have truly loved, and you will never understand, what pain really is, until you have lost it.
He touched my heart with
a thousand pleasures and broke it into million pieces.
And I have to work so hard at talking positively to myself. 
If I don't, it's just real hard to get through the day, and I'll get really down, and just want to cry.
My whole body language changes. 
I get more slumped over. 
Because of you, I'm running out of reasons to cry. 

 

This song sang out my feeling.. :')

Missing you day and night :')

I know it hurt you it hurt me too,

but now that you're gone

All I know is I Miss You!

Whenever I miss you, 

I hug my pillow tight

& imagine it's you :'(

Nobody understands how much I miss you,

I miss how we used to talk,

& miss all the things we used to do

I try not to admit it to myself

that I still feel this way.

Nobody knows that I still wake up

thinking of you each day.

I still think of you & I really do miss you

I would give up everything I have

to be everything we're not.

*L

All Alone

How can you hurt me so
you act like it was nothing
when you get up and go
but it was really something
to have left me all alone
I sit here and wonder
how you can be so blind
my mind just ponders
Im just too kind
while you have left me all alone
you make up these excuses
and pretend it is okay
but I can’t take the abuse
that you show my way
you have left me all alone
someday you will see
all the pain Im feeling
but this really hurts me
this is why Im fleeing
because you have left me all alone
Now I will leave you in the dust
when you see me walking off
you won’t be thinking about any lust
all you can imagine sitting in your loff
while I leave you all alone

Never hurt again

I think of every lie you’ve said,
as it wonders in and out my head.
You lied, you cheated, every memory I’ve deleted.
I thought what we had was really true.
Since that mistake, we’re nearly through.
I wonder about it everyday,
but there are no words I can say.
To explain the pain I feel inside,
from neglect and every lie. I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul.
I gave you every emotion I can’t control.
And with your mistake, it’s just another heartbreak.
You hurt me once, you hurt me twice.
Im so caught up in all your lies.
Never again, never again.
Because of you, things had to end.
Hurt, used, neglected, betrayed.
I need a new hope to be made.
I have had feelings I’ve never felt.
But now, because of you, I have dealt.
The damage you have done, I hope was fun.
The hurt that you caused me, resulted in plenty misery.
The only truth you ever told, was that I was something to let go.

Keep Believing *L

I am just like a fool when I need You
This heart of mine is always open
I am so easy to deceive
I am just a fool to keep believing
But I’ll keep on trying
Even though it will hurt
But can’t give up from You
This feeling inside
Doesn’t let me Give Up
All time I spend thinking of You
I should be healing myself instead of hurting
And it hurts to keep believing in You anymore
As long as this feeling is inside of me
I’ll keep believing….
Just a fool to believe

Blameless L*

I don’t blame you for my pain,
its not your fault people play there sick twisted games.
Yea Im hurt and often cry,
as there’s a question to be answered (WHY).
What gives people the rite to put me through humiliation and shame?
I guess we’ll never know as me and him are not the same.
As a mother it must been hard for you,
not knowing the torture your baby girl went through.
You did the best you could,
you shone through with the love.
The monster he walked free,
not a shed of guilt, just the next victim whippee.
Hurt and anger is all I know,
Im a lovely person in time it will show.
Until then bare with me,
the time is rite Im set free.
so believe me when I say, i don’t blame you for any of this,
its just some people take the piss

Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life.

                         Our greatest happiness does not depend on the condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result of a good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just pursuits.

 All of us have had the experience of a sudden joy that came when nothing in the world had forewarned us of its coming - a joy so thrilling that if it was born of misery we remembered even the misery with tenderness. 

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of.  You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

Happiness is not being pained in body or troubled in mind.You need to learn to be happy by nature, because you'll seldom have the chance to be happy by circumstance. On the whole, the happiest people seem to be those who have no particular cause for being happy except that they are so.To be happy, we must not be too concerned with others.In order to have great happiness you have to have great pain and unhappiness - otherwise how would you know when you're happy?Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.
 

P/S : Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling.